News of the split between the 41-year-old television personality and his now-estranged wife broke in September when 克里斯蒂娜（Christina）, 37, announced the news on Instagram.
The comment has led fans to believe that the split was Christina’s decision — and Anstead has now confirmed those theories.
“I think everybody knows this was not my decision,” he told People magazine. “It really hit me hard.”
的 “惠勒经销商” star said that he’s known as someone who gives himself “fully” to those he loves, and explained that he “had so much love for” 克里斯蒂娜（Christina）.
现在, over three months after they announced their split, Anstead admits that he had been in a “very dark place” for a time, but he eventually “reached this turning point.”
“I had the choice to dwell on it, or move on and work on myself,” 他说.
安斯特德 显露 that to help himself cope, he signed up for a 35-day “breakup recovery” course online, as well as a three-day faith-based retreat that helped him to focus on physical fitness and mental health.
The TV star said that both taught him that “nobody controls me but me. It’s up to me to empower myself and realize how incredibly worthy I am of healing.”
Nowadays, he’s established a routine that helps keep his head on his shoulders. He begins his days by calling his older two children — 艾米丽, 17, and Archie, 14 — in the UK before exercising, indulging in a healthy breakfast and offering up a prayer of gratitude.
He’s also enjoying spending time with his 1-year-old son Hudson, whom he shares with Christina.
“Not only have I improved my mental health, I’ve actually made a real conscious decision to go and improve my physical health, 以及. 我的意思是, for the first time in my life, I’m actually now taking vitamins,” 他说, adding that he feels more fit now than he did during his time as a soccer pro.
Despite all the progress he’s made, Anstead is aware that healing and moving on take time and shouldn’t be rushed.
“It really is a process, and the thing about healing is sometimes you feel like you’re making daily progress, 接着, from nowhere, your legs get taken out, and you feel like you start again,” 他解释. “But I’m certainly making steps towards healing, even if it’s really slow.”