“I think Covid helped me a lot with that.”
During his darkest moments, Kyrgios says he felt like he was “letting people down all the time.”
He says he believed at times that people he met “really didn’t care who I was as a human being, rather just a tennis player … the crazy tennis player.”
他加了: “I felt worthless to be honest, I didn’t feel comfortable, I hated my life at one stage.
“I was cutting, 燃烧的, just pretty f**ked up sh*t. It was so dark that I kind of liked it as well, like asking people to do it and stuff. What doesn’t kill you makes you stranger (and stronger). I’m still a bit cooked.”
Kyrgios says that he is deeply affected by the abuse he has received on social media over the years.
The Australian Open’s men’s doubles winner, who was born to a Greek father and a Malay mother, has revealed on a number of occasions how often he has to face racist abuse on social media.
“I deal with it all the time,” he explains. “People just think raising the finger, abusing someone or making racist comments is acceptable in this day and age, and I just don’t think that’s acceptable at all. 现在, you just have to use it as motivation, but that’s easier said than done.
“People talk sh*t about you and do bad things. They’re achieving nothing to what you’re achieving. You have to just try and brush it off and use it as motivation and cling onto the people around you that send you positive energy all the time.”